Little Spontanious Urges

I need help; I can feel myself going down. I'm going down!

Things have been a little too good for a little too long and it's time to stir it up, I can feel it coming. It's not a decision it's more like an instinct. It's not like I'm sitting around thinking about how I can fuck with people and how I can create drama in my life... It's more like being horny and having a hot naked man in front of you, I just can't help it. Or like being hungry and having all the ingredients to make yourself dinner.

I get these spontaneous urges, and one of them, I going to do eventually. I'm fighting it but it scares me sometimes.